Excerpts from my Blog
“Join me in this quest, as a periodically wax about the women i love, still love, and miss with all my heart. i am heartbroken even now, as i write this, for so long has passed with no hope of finding such love again. My life for me, has come and gone, and life passed me by. With no wife and no kids, i missed out on the very best part of life, something which i had a taste of when she loved me as she did – that of family.”
“Well, the heartache was devastating to me. I died on the inside, and went from job to job (15 in that time frame alone), not caring about life, myself, or anyone else. I could bear no more pain, when within 2 years (1996), I chose to no longer wake up, if you know what I mean. Two years was too many years without her love, without a life worth living.”
“Theres been no one like her
She was all I lived for
And my love for her
Has gotten stronger
Now that I have lived so much life
Alone
Without a wife and family of my own
It just goes to show
Just how special she was
Inside and out
And the worst thing of all
Is she loved me very much
Enough to give of herself”
“My heart cries out for her still, more so than ever, since realizing after all these years, how perfect she was, and just what a waste my life has been since she said goodbye….. with no wife and kids now, and it being too late to start a family of my own, this year, more so than since ’96, has meant that i have lost purpose and meaning in my life.”
“Having myself seen dispare, over losing what amounted to the most complete and fulfilling love I have known in my entire life when Christine Collins said goodbye, and now having left my 20s and 30s behind me, have realized what a waste life was without the women i loved and wanted a family with. Now it is too Damn late, life has passed me by without a wife and my own kids. So, the only thing that has kept me going has been my job as a teacher, and my faith and hope in Jesus. When I lost Christine Collins, I lost my life as I knew it, full of love, and hope for a future with her and our kids, that I looked forward to. And so now that so much time has gone by, I am out of hope and time now.”
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