Hello world!

Good Day, eh!  Welcome to my new blog.  This blog highlights a personal struggle of mine, that of rejection from the very women i love still to this very day.  It is a tragic drama, played out on the lit and unlit stage of the mind and body.  The title of my blog is eagleslife 94.  The rationale for such a name is a follows:  My CB handle has had something to do with eagles since the 1980s.  The numeral 94 has much to do with the pivotal nearly life ending year when she threw my love for her away, and told me the absolute horrible words “I don’t care about you any more.”  Wow, for someone that loved me, or at least cared about me deeply for 8 long years, to suddenly toss me out like the garbage my life became afterwards, killed me on the inside.

And so, here it is, some 15 years later, and I put into writing what i hope she will someday find.  My love for her continues, to this very day, undiminished, and in fact, even grown, given that so long has gone by, with no one as perfect to me as she was, whom actually gave me love (though there have been crushes on some women since that are as great as her, but could care less about me!).

So, join me in  this quest, as a periodically wax about the women i love, still love, and miss with all my heart.  i am heartbroken even now, as i write this, for so long has passed with no hope of finding such love again.  My life for me, has come and gone, and life passed me by.  With no wife and no kids, i missed out on the very best part of life, something which i had a taste of when she loved me as she did – that of family.

I close this brief intro into this blog, by saying i am a broken man, who has been wounded by love, trying to find a reason for being, aside from my job as a college professor.  Although such a life is extremely rewarding on a personal level, (though financially a disaster!), i would trade this life to have had one with her or the others i so wanted to marry and have a family of my own with all those years ago.  Now, it is too late.